It makes me mad. It frustrates me. It confuses me. It just sucks. I feel so naive for my feelings but then again, who wouldn’t have made the decisions I did? Probably someone actually sane. I keep hitting the surface with you and then get shunned away. I just want to break through and let you know that I care about you. That you inspire me. That the time we spent together was amazing for me. That with you, I actually felt potential. I think the thing that makes me upset the most is the fact that I failed. I’m not good with failure and I’ll admit that it rarely happens. But with you, you played my emotions and led me to believe that I was worth it. I wish I felt more neutral on the situation, but no one ever said getting your heart smashed in two and run over by a bulldozer was easy.